Don't get me wrong, I WANT to be married and formalize our family, but the act of gathering family for the actual service is making me insane.
After all the pagan wedding drama with my mom...we were finally making headway in our relationship and understanding of one another.
And that brings us to last night.
Where she has changed her mind and decided that she is going to have no part in a wedding my father is attending/participating in.
Just when I thought she'd let me have one fucking day where my family can pretend I'm more important than shit that happened 20 years ago.
I'm not going to answer her calls or rush to help her make stuff for people. Unlike me at age 22, Getting her approval is no longer my only desire for my life.
She's invited, she's been asked and encouraged to participate...if she chooses not to, it's her choice, not mine.